Friday, May 1, 2009
Since young, I was taught to be independent by the circumstances and somehow, I like that. Partly because I don't really trust anyone easily and to me, nobody could be trusted and that's how I am. I don't really rely on my friends because I assume that nobody is completely reliable, to me. And today, my assumption was proven right. Never in my whole life had I ever been this glad that my character's such a shit.
All those ' You know I love you, you're my best friend I'll always be here for you ' kinda thing used to touch me. But now, it's all bull to me. Please stop those empty talks because one reason I choose not to trust anymore was because someone told me promises are meant to be broken. Well, I've accepted the fact and now Im going to move on with life. I hope you do as well.
For once, I've decided to post up my friendship issues here is because someone whom I trusted so much proved to me that our friendship is always at the last position. To think I even treated you as my best friend. I always get a lot of shit from various friendships but never did I thought of posting it up here because 1) Im used to it. 2) There was no point to.
One reason I wanted to post this up so badly is because I don't know how to talk to you about this. I've spoken to you before and it's like you think it's perfectly alright even things stayed the way they are right now. Well well, I really wonder if tolerating's right from the beginning. And when I post this up here, you might think Im contradicting myself because in the paragraph above, I said that Im used to all these shit in friendships. But however, the reason Im unhappy is because I've always saved a place for you in a little corner of my heart. When things goes way wrong, the first ( or perhaps second ) person I'll look for is you. That's my whole point, you see? But from all those things you've done, I can see that actually Im just your backup plan, right? Again and again and again. Im tired of all these. Give me a break.
Enough said, bye.
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